You know life is so busy these days with work the kids and all of life’s responsibilities. So to actually go 3 thousand miles to be bumped from a Tour that you inspired and help cultivate is pretty hard to swallow. Then on top of that you get fired by TEXT!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mc41ii63Es8
Ouch! You know I’ve taken some heavy shots in my life but Boy! this one takes the case. Figure it can’t get any worse right? All of the sudden I get this threat on Face Book:
Jarrad Winter March 5th at 9:14pm:
You have been warned.
I will say this once. If you drag me into your psychosis one more time or so much as mention my name you will be finished. Your fall will be historic and I will personally insure there will be no recovery angle for you.
You have no idea who you are dealing and I can guarantee you do not want to find out. You even elude to my likeness ever again to anyone and within one month you will be out of the scene with no chance of coming back.
In short , you better quit opening your mouth or it will cost you your narcissist dream in total.
Take your meds before you react and think carefully about this message. You don’t understand and it will cost you everything if I have to teach you a lesson.
That was from my new friend. Pretty pleasant huh? Not much of a sense of humor seems kinda dark actually. I love how he uses these psychology terms . Maybe he is an expert in that as well like Islam ” I have been at this a long time now …almost a year” that is a direct quote from his never-ending speech that he had to be asked to get off the stage.
So as you can tell this was quite a blow. Betrayed – Fired – Threats. That’s one serious tri-fecta of misery. Well I’m just trying to make lemonade out of lemons. I’m concentrating on all the Media I have coming up. I’m sure people that donate to Christian Action Network will find it disturbing that the guy who was the nucleus for the entire Tour was treated so poorly ….or maybe not nothing would surprise me at this stage.
Well the historic fall part was probably my fault for not clearing it up earlier but I never thought my credibility would ever come into question. Wrong again Andy! I have stayed far away from Ground Zero for 8 years. It was only when they wanted to try KSM did I revisit that dark period in my life and started on my activist ways. I was scared I blocked all of those memories from my life and now sober and lucid I went back to that awful time.
The mind is a great mechanism and really knows how to protect you in times of great trauma. It gradually let the nightmare back in and so the recovery begins. Thing is it really doesn’t work for 911 survivors. There will never be any closure. Now I have people who are supposed to be helping and this is how I get treated? Christian Action Network came to me. I never went to them. They asked me to do this Tour. The manager Jason Campell even said to me ” Andy you touch the crowd better then anyone else .I’ve never seen the crowd react to anyone like they react to you” Maybe because it’s real.
Damn straight it’s real. When I was asked about my experience I asked permission first to the worker we got out of Tower 1 and he told me… ” Mr. Andy please I cannot get involved I don’t want to get into trouble” It was at that point I decided to with hold that part of the story. It was only when I went to his house and sat down with his family and we watched Sacrificed Survivors did he turn to me and say: ” Mr. Andy please tell them the Tower 1 story” The whole family were in tears …grandparents too. I gotta tell you even after all those screenings looking at the pictures of all of those children breaks my heart.
I know a few months ago this woman told me one time ” I could destroy your life!” I gotta tell you at first I thought she was kidding …..then she started acting more distant. Now when we would speak there was this air of superiority in her voice and the niceness was gone. I thought she was stressed out from the planning and people cancelling and felt bad for her. Poor girl must be out of her mind with fatigue. Looking back though I feel like I was set-up.
I blame Christian Action Network for this. It was their ship to man and they abandoned it. I’m afraid they are the ones who will take the greatest hit in the form of donations. Thing is the threats I couldn’t ignore. I have already been through these comprehensive background checks so I am full aware of it’s intrusiveness. Even a saint would sweat these puppies. I find it funny that they are so obsessed with me ( AWESOME) but when your entire world is a keyboard that is sad. This medium could be a great asset or a curse. It makes people think they are someone they are not. Isn’t it curious how quickly my new friend was able to gather his bogus data on me so damn fast? Think about that when making your decision. Because their background checks started yesterday and these are pros and it’s going to take a few days but I really don’t want this honestly. A simple apology will suffice. This is the second time I have offered a truce. You already look like fools for your historic fall crap. There will not be a third. Good Luck and God Bless to all especially my new BF Jarrad!!